Releasing It All

Its Spring time. Time to cleanse...Release.

Its 2012 and our eyes are opening!

Many people are figuring it out! Their purpose here in this moment, I mean. And its beautiful to see.

Have I? Who knows? I don't.

All I know is I feel that I've been stuck since having children. Stuck in basically every area of my life. I feel like I'm treading water and keep trying to swim, but get nowhere.

And then it occured to me this past week as a large chapter of my life has closed (I've finished 7 years of pregnancy and breastfeeding last week)...what am I trying to swim away from? And what am I trying to swim toward? I don't honestly know. My "purpose" has not been a huge Las Vegas billboard that flashes in front of my face as I had the expectation it would.

So, I choose to release.

Not actually release things, but just be prepared to release everything. Because all I really have...is ME. All the other "things" in my life are just that...things.

If I lost my home, my car, my clothes, my husband...I am then naked. And that's the scariest, most vulnerable place to be, but that is also where I can just be ME. Without societal norms (keeping up with the Joneses - you mamas know what I'm talking about), preconceived notions or lifelong goals.

Pure Freedom.

And you know what? Its liberating!

I choose to go with the flow and not force things any longer. Because forcing things to happen had the opposite effect - they never happened. I tended to get overwhelmed with the ideas and could not follow through on any of them.

I choose to release.

Its not up to me what I release. I'm prepared to release it all. I'm prepared for a breakdown.

Do I care what people think of me? No. Not anymore. I think that's what has kept me stuck for so long. I've been constantly worried about what my community thinks of me.

I feel liberated and free that I don't care anymore.

I am actually far from a breakdown. I actually feel joyous. Just knowing in my soul if I lose it all tomorrow that I'll be okay.

More than okay. I'll be free.

The only true security in my life is simply me. Only then will I be of true service to the world.

I have this insatiable need to be of great service to others yet cannot seem to figure out what it is and how to do so. I want it to be grand. I want to show my children the path of service. I want to be that change I wish to see in the world. Its been incredibly frustrating and I keep hearing myself say "I want, I want, I want". Its time to release all those preconceived notions of how it should be.

What is my message? I don't know yet. This incredibly loud voice inside of me is screaming though. If I could spend 40 days naked in the desert, I'd do it. But now in my life I guide young souls (my 2 children), so I can't. I just choose to be vulnerable and be of service in any way I can.

Why am I sharing this with you? Because I've found that so many people actually feel the same way, but are not expressing it.

There's no time for small talk anymore.

We must focus on making great changes to ourselves and our world. Work through the muck to find the essence. The muck that keeps us stuck - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. THAT is when we can all unite for the greater good.

So "cleansing" or "detox" are the hot words right now. And they should be.

Its time for us to rise and be the change. Not just physically or for selfish reasons of looking good in a swimsuit, but to get out of our heads, to free our bodies and spirits and to connect en masse so that we can all change the world for the future of our children.



I am guiding an online group cleanse starting this weekend (March 24th/25th 2012) and haven't really been into it. I haven't even wanted to advertise it. But now I realize that I have the knowledge and ability to guide other people into finding freedom too. Because what we carry around is all just a facade.

Get back to your essence. That's when you will shine brightest.

If you're interested in my holistic health cleanse or coaching, please visit my current website www.vitalityventures.com.


Blissings,
Stanzi